Day 4:Resilience
(written Wednesday 11/04)
OMG!!!! Day 4 tried to murder me 😭
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Nevertheless, this week has been emotionally driven. It’s taken a mental toll on me. Additionally, I am at odds with my feelings; relationships I trusted are crumbling, and my life doesn’t feel like mine. It definitely has Twilight Zone vibes.
It’s hard for me to be vulnerable and open when I don’t know how to feel or who to trust. That is why resilience is my gratitude today.
I wouldn’t be intentional with my blog if I shied away from my feels.
It doesn’t mean it’s easy, but….
In this sisterhood, we share.
We grieve.
We laugh…to endure through it all.
We do not run from our feels.
We sit with them, and in the end we know it’s better this way.
Day 4: MY JOURNEY
This year I added modelling and performing at open mic events. The modelling is a newer venture (Jan). It’s been a whirlwind seeing the photos of me on the runway with local designers and other talented artists. I managed to pay for a makeup artist a few times!
YAY, progress! 🤩
Last Thursday I was in a runway show. (see above photo) It’s very surreal for me, as I have dreamed of walking a runway my whole life. I would read fashion magazines for hours; this was years before I was in high school. I envisioned myself on a glossy page in a colorful outfit.
The reality that this is my life still surprises me.
This is MY life?
Seriously? OMG?!
On this day, reflecting on the last ten months, I am grateful for my journey. I have no clue where modelling will take me, but I will keep aiming for the stars until I get to the end. I am ready for it. All of it. I have waited all my life to be on that glossy page.
