Mindset Through Darkness
Being trapped by the maze of memories. The shoulda, woulda, coulda, memories that my mind loves to bring up.The feelings of ‘ not being good enough.’ The thoughts that ring way too loudly, ‘What is wrong with me?’! The ending of long relationships. The betrayal of a loved one. There are doubts about my self-worth, my purpose, and my life. This has been my darkness recently.
Someone I trust hinted that I might draw needy people to me to FIX them. Hmmmmm. 🤔
I wasn’t hearing any of this.
My mindset becomes that if I can fix them, it will make up for what was broken in me. To some extent, my trusted friend was right.
My mindset quickly turned to: “Fine, I won’t engage in new relationships. I won’t make friends. I won’t be social. Period. Problem solved.”
Anyone who knows me knows that was going to last a hot second. The turning point for me came from two sides. My lifelong friend spoke to my wounded spirit instead of the hurt mindset. This friend asked me the question that stopped me in my mindset and changed my path.
How do you know this person thinks she is not worthy to be your friend?
WHAT?!
Wait a minute.
At the same time, I am stewing because I feel unworthy of her, after all she has seen behind my veil. Is it possible she felt undeserving of me and that I had seen behind her veil?
My Saviour spoke to my soul. HE shined a pinpoint of Light into the darkness. Jesus was broken and dead, laid in a tomb, only to arise whole and alive. Those who visited the tomb on Easter Sunday found an empty place where HE had laid. God breathed a new mindset in me as I thought about HIS sacrifice. If it’s broken and dead, throw it away. If it is supposed to live and be made whole, it will be by HIS Grace. Not by my effort, but HIS.
I can feel a mindset shift. I went to what comforts me in any place I find myself.
MUSIC🎧
I began to listen to the Williams Brothers’ “Still Here”. I was moved to tears by the words I heard repeatedly for several days. The words poured over me, washing me down the river of darkness, leading me to HIS marvelous light. I have friends, family, and faith. This is how I overcame the darkness of my mindset. They ministered to my spirit, soul, and heart.
I looked UP ⬆️
What do you do when your mindset leads you to a place of darkness?
How do you find light when you feel like the ugly stepchild in the Kingdom?
What breaks the darkness for you?
What leads to the Light?
Let’s try, Dear Ones, to keep moving toward the Happiness In You.
I hope you join me, Sisters, in changing our mindset during times of darkness.
I am the Light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the Light of life. John 8:12-14
